December is usually the month that I am so excited. I LOVE the weather, holidays, and overall the spirit that surrounds the whole entire month.
The beginning of the month, we learned that my dad wasn't feeling well and needed to go back to his heart dr. A year ago, we learned that he has congestive heart failure and he had a pacemaker put in. Within the last year, his heart has deteriorated greatly. After performing a heart cath - the drs discovered that they have three clogged arteries. One artery was clogged 100% and two were clogged 99%. His heart was only functioning about 30%. It is truly a miracle that he was still getting around and wasn't showing major effects.
The drs attempted to use a heart stent to open up the arteries. That day, I was a bundle of nerves. Seeing my dad scared and we all just crying not knowing if this could potentially be the last time to talk and hug and kiss my dad. It broke me. After 3 hours, the procedure was not successful. The arteries were too clogged to open up.
My dad had turned down having a triple bypass at that hospital. Which I am happy. The survival rate for a bypass for him is less then 20%.
He has decided to try a second attempt at a heart stent at the medical center. If it is again unsuccessful, he will then need a triple bypass. Days after this, I was a mess I didn't sleep for days. In fear that something bad would happen and I wouldn't be awake to answer the call. I completely fell apart. All my thoughts and all I do is thinking about him and praying for him.
I am praying that the second attempt is successful. We are clear up at least one artery and he can strengthen his heart up and get ready for a bypass.
Talk about placing your whole and entire heart into faith into God. This is all I care about is not being angry with the situation, but to be hopeful and love God's plans for us.
